I'm such a bad blogger

I haven't written a thing in ages.

That's because I'm not very good in hiding information, at least not the kind that affects my life tremendously.

The info is that I'm cooking something right now, a sibling for my son :-)

The beginning was really rough and it took me a while to recover, but now it's all good. Knock on wood of course.

Other than that, life is pretty much the same, and I feel like I might bore my readers with mother stories, so I don't share them, although every day with my almost 2 year old son, brings lots of interesting things, especially laughs and challenges.

So, sorry again for a short post, just wanted to excuse myself,

hope to be writing something interesting soon again!

update

I'm fine, really

just busy, and I guess I'll have some more time to tell you all about what's going on with me some other time....

but I'm still here :-)

Deal

Sometimes you dont want to deal with things.
Simply coz u know that the other side will never change.
Especially if you've known them for your entire life, and u know that it's only going to get worse with time and age.
It's a dead end road and u know it and it sucks.

Total mom

Today I've got flowers.
It was one little branch from the garden, and I got it right after the morning shower.
Tiny came to me and gave me the flower, very curious how I would react.

It's mothers day today. Although, in my home town we celebrate it on a different date. The first mayor made his wife's Hebrew date birthday into the city's mothers day. So we celebrate it on the second day of Chanukah.

Anyway, it's mothers day here and everywhere, and I got flowers.

I realized today, that some ppl are very total about all kinds of things. Some love their job and work all the time. Some love their partners so much, they can't imagine living without them. Some dedicate their lives to their hobbies.

I've never felt so total about something like I feel as a mom. (although I can't imagine my life without Rob ;-)). There was nothing I wanted to dedicate myself to like this. Not my studies, not my jobs. Nothing. It was more of a realization than a tacky feeling.

I think it's sad, that I feel like I need to be a bit ashamed for saying that. The new emancipated woman is supposed to want to work, not only think of making babies and providing for them.

But I don't want to apologize for the way I feel. I'm not only a woman. I'm a parent.

And yes, I know I write about this a lot... I can't help it.

My mother is here for a visit

Yay!

Just another woman you saw

Her hair is up. You can see she tried to make it look nice this morning, but at some point she just gave up.

She has dark rings under her eyes. Sometimes she forgets to put on makeup. Sometimes she just asks herself: what for? For whom?

She's wearing jeans and a knitted sweater. She wears the same jeans a few times a week. It's the one that looks best on her. It's the only one she's bought since she became a mother.

You see her everywhere: on the train, in the underground, at a restaurant, eating with another mother, in the supermarket, trying to shop for food while the kid is sleeping in the stroller, early in the morning, rushing somewhere, looking like she has no time and probably forgot to do or left something at home.

Most ppl might not even see her.
Once in a while an old lady might smile at her, or a man might offer some help taking the stroller down the stairs where there is no elevator.

She notices most woman that are like her. Spots their faces among all the others. When she sees one, she thinks: "she must have been up all night", or: "she seems so much in love with her child", or: "how is it that she looks so nice and pretty?"


She looks like them all.
They are all mothers.
They are not all the same, but they can understand each other more than anyone can understand anyone else.

3 good things last day

That's it, it's been 21 days!
would be weird to not write my 3 good things here every day. But I think that for the blog it would be a bit boring if I continue, so I guess I'll just have to make it into a habit, to write it down for myself at least a few times a week.

so.... here it is for the last time:

1. Staying at home all day coz you want to is not that bad :-) We had a nice relaxed day at home.

2. This is another nice  quiet evening. Hope there will be more of these to come.

3. I miss Rob. Some ppl might think that missing someone is a negative feeling. I don't.

3 good things day 20

1. Had a rather good night sleep and an easy morning

2. Met a friend for lunch, was really fun with her and her son, and also heard some good news from her.

3. Had another nice and quiet evening for myself, managed to also try out the new Washi tape I bought. As soon as it's done I'll put a picture of what I did (but first I need to be happy with the result, and that will take some more time and try outs).

3 good things day 19

Wow, in two days 21 days will be over.

1. We finally made it to go to the mothers club today, after a few days having to stay at home coz Tiny was feeling bad. It was refreshing.

2. My sweet mother in law (no irony!) came here for a  few hours, took Tiny off my hands for a bit and kept me company. It was necessary and great.

3. Tiny was so tired today, it made him completely cranky,  but at least that meant that he went to sleep at 18:30 and I had a long nice quiet evening to myself.
Now going to sleep coz it probably means he'll wake up with dawn....

3 good things day 18

1. Tiny is feeling a bit better.

2. I finally made it to get to the small chinese restaurant I've heard so much about. It was great chinese food, not the kind of food they fix to the european taste in most asian places. The first bite of the Baozi took me miles and years away. It's called Maigarten and I'll give details if you're interested.

3. I had a long skype conversation with my sister. It was so much fun just talking and talking. I love her and I really miss her. she really helped me go through the evening alone at home. Especially coz my computer is starting to turn off whenever it wants to. Grrr