Total mom

Today I've got flowers.
It was one little branch from the garden, and I got it right after the morning shower.
Tiny came to me and gave me the flower, very curious how I would react.

It's mothers day today. Although, in my home town we celebrate it on a different date. The first mayor made his wife's Hebrew date birthday into the city's mothers day. So we celebrate it on the second day of Chanukah.

Anyway, it's mothers day here and everywhere, and I got flowers.

I realized today, that some ppl are very total about all kinds of things. Some love their job and work all the time. Some love their partners so much, they can't imagine living without them. Some dedicate their lives to their hobbies.

I've never felt so total about something like I feel as a mom. (although I can't imagine my life without Rob ;-)). There was nothing I wanted to dedicate myself to like this. Not my studies, not my jobs. Nothing. It was more of a realization than a tacky feeling.

I think it's sad, that I feel like I need to be a bit ashamed for saying that. The new emancipated woman is supposed to want to work, not only think of making babies and providing for them.

But I don't want to apologize for the way I feel. I'm not only a woman. I'm a parent.

And yes, I know I write about this a lot... I can't help it.