A little peek into the life of a woman who followed her heart around the world, and found herself living in a country she'd never imagined living in. Welcome to my world: Israel-China-Germany-France
Saturday, June 23, 2007
What was I thinking?
It's been more than a month since I left Germany, and now I miss him more than ever. After living together, seeing each other every day for 8 months (except 10 days in x-mass), I don't really know why I was thinking to stay here for so long. But on the other hand- I wish he was here rather than wish I was there. Not that I don't wanna go- but I did need this time here, if not only to get sick of being here, then at least to "Lematzot" we say in Hebrew- to "utilize something to it's fullest" (as the dictionary translated). Not talking to him a lot in the last few days (he's not home for the weekend- meeting friends in Sweden), or to tell the truth - in the last month there were about 2 weeks that we couldn't really talk a lot- made me miss him even more. It's so weird! Before I fall asleep I think how weird it is to not be with your boyfriend for so long after living with him for 8 months. I don't know, I guess it happens, and it's not that weird but now I can't convince myself that it's normal. I know that it's me that chose to be here for so long, but it doesn't help me feel any better about it. In less than 2 weeks from now I'll be there- hopefully I'll feel better.
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Been there, done that...
It's part of being in a mixed couple.
I remember nights of endless "ga-a-gohim" and days with no option to talk...
Aber! at the end it all works. For good or bad...
Enjoy Israel and please "Tematzi" everything that you can... Germany is far away from home :)
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