I'm at uni now writing from the computer lab (that costs me money- fucking'ey am I a student here or not???? what the *%#$ is that? aren't students supposed to be poor???) It's cold in here (they only started using the AC for heating the classes- the computer lab apparantly isn't that important) and tomorrow I have an exam in Chinese- as I've told you before- this time the exam is only in Chinese characters... I'm so unprepared- and as you can see - instead of studying I sit here online...
My main teacher is starting to annoy me- she was so sweet in the beginning - at the time it really seemed that she knows exactly where we come from and what are most of our goals in learning Chinese. Lately it feels like she's on a race to finish the book, no matter if we really know how to speak or if we understand Chinese or not- the thing that became most important now in class is to memorize characters- a thing that can be cool if I had remembered them but it really doesn't give me anything if every day there are 20 new ones... I feel like my speaking is stuck- I haven't progressed in a while - in favor of the character learning in class. I really try to make the best out of class- trying to learn how to say as many words as possible- especially the ones I know I'll need outside the walls of uni. But the combination of not being satisfied with the studying in this uni (I guess it's almost the same in all of them- in the end- they are all under the same education system) and the fact that I don't study enough when I'm alone- that puts me in a breaking point - a mid semester breaking point.
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My computer died last Monday. I got home from uni and couldn't turn it on. I called the IBM numbers in China that Rob looked up online for me, and got the address of a computer lab. I took a taxi there - taking my computer with me- as if he's my little child whom I'm rushing to the hospital... They told me there that the main board is dead- and that I have 2 choices: the first one is to order a new one from the factory- a matter of 2 weeks and about 500$ (!!!). The second choice (and the better one) is to try to fix it - and if they succeed (they don't know if they will) it'll cost me "only" about 200$. In any case I spend a lot of money... The only bright spot is that they say that my hard drive isn't damaged (crossing my fingers they are right) so I can always put the data on it on another computer or an external hard drive.
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That's it for now - I'll go try to make myself study a bit- I must admit- I HAVE NO MOTIVATION.
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