I wanted to write about Easter and what we did. I wanted to write about what I thought about it. I wanted to write about how it ended. I wanted to write about how it made me feel.
But I lost my will at some point. The will to tell.
Don't worry. It'll all come back to me. I promise.
As soon as I start making my own decisions about my life and taking chances and as soon as I realize that I'm the only one that is entitled to decide what I tell and to whom.
Just don't know if it's the right point of view.
You probably don't even know what I'm talking about. Well I'll just say that it has something to do with putting your life online for everyone to see.
Still don't know if I really care about it. I mean, if it bothers me or not.
Especially coz I like writing so much. It's really liberating. And there's something about the fact that other people wait for what I write and actually read it that makes me write at all.
Coz before I started this blog- I loved writing- but never really had one notebook where I gathered it all in. I always had a million pieces of paper on them I wrote stuff in the middle of nowhere in the middle of the night. I started thousands of these notebooks. And here, in this blog it's the first time it's all in the same place. And I like it.
Anyway, just wanted to say that I'm fine. "Learning" for an exam I have this week. If I pass I save a lot of money. Cross your fingers please. Hard to sit down and study alone without a class and a teacher...
Monday, March 31, 2008
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Back from Israel
so... Let's start with the list I made in Istanbul at the airport, let's see what I did and what not:
See my dad and his wife and my little brothers.
Did that but felt like it was the shortest visit in the world... Came back home wanting more, and didn't get to see them again. I miss them a lot!
See my grandma.
Did that- and got to eat so much of her nice food... Just forgot the cookies she gave me to take with, but at least I got to eat some of them there...
See my grandpa.
Saw him and his wife, was a nice visit, haven't been in their house for ages. I always go to my grandpas clothes store when he's working (yes yes he's more than 75 and still working) and I see his wife when they come to my dad's when I'm there. Their house didn't change much. His wife, which is a really lovely and funny lady, is really old now, and can't work at all anymore (she is a housewife but her food- was the best!!!). It's sad...
See my aunt and cousins (from both sides)
Only saw my aunt from my moms side... didn't get to see any cousins...
Spend time with my mom and sister.
Spent! was really nice with both of them!
Celebrate my moms birthday with her.
We hung out all day together, my sister came to Haifa too, but I had the stomach flu so I didn't really feel great that day... It past after 24 hours (which was really lucky coz having an aching stomach in Israel is like going to the toy store and not being aloud to play with the toys!!!)
Get a haircut.
Got one! really nice!
Go to the dentist.
Went. Got a filling in a cavity which I think was there more than a year ago but none of the dentists I went to ever saw it. It's the same one that the dentist in China said I should kill (root canal) - stupid dentist - it was a cavity for god's sake!!! Anyway now I have to go there again to put in the new filling (since the one I have now is temporary)...
Go to the doctor.
Went! got everything I needed.
See all my friends: including: Yifat, Adi (and her new baby), Goni (and her new baby), Tali (and her new husband to be).
Saw them all and it was great! Saw Yifat (but only for one evening and one afternoon), saw Adi and her baby twice (he's the cutest and most beautiful of them all!!! I totally fell in love), saw Goni and her baby a few times (she is definitely adorable and sweet and cute and and and), saw Tali twice and once with her boyfriend, she told me when they're getting married. And- I also saw Anat which I haven't seen in ages, and Nadav- twice- which was great, and also a new friend from one of the forums I participate in- always nice to find out who's behind a nickname.
Eat Humus.
Did that with my new friend, in the best place in Israel (to my opinion).
Go to the beach whatever weather it is.
Had a walk (well it's more of a walk with my mom than a jog) on the beach, and it was great, even though the weather was the worst (foggy - it looked as if hell came over, we could look at the sun right though it without blinking, it looked more like the moon).
I also spent time with my cute dog (took his pictures- but it's on the film camera so till it's ready to put here it'll be irrelevant already).
Now I'm back in Dresden, it's 2 degrees, it was 20 in Israel... But it's fine, I know that soon enough it'll get warmer here too. Today is Purim- our costume and fun and getting drunk holiday- I'm celebrating it tomorrow with the community (where I teach Hebrew) the kids are giving a play (which I wrote according to the holiday story) and it's gonna be fun.
This weekend is Easter, and Rob's friends from all over Europe are coming over for a yearly reunion, I'm really glad coz I really like them all... 2 of them are gonna stay over here on our floor- and on Friday we're inviting them all for dinner!!! It's gonna be a cool weekend.
I really need to start studying to my German exam, I haven't studied one bit in Israel (big surprise) and now I really need to do something about it... hmmm... Hard to get back on track...
That's the update for now, happy Purim and Happy Easter to all of you!
See my dad and his wife and my little brothers.
Did that but felt like it was the shortest visit in the world... Came back home wanting more, and didn't get to see them again. I miss them a lot!
See my grandma.
Did that- and got to eat so much of her nice food... Just forgot the cookies she gave me to take with, but at least I got to eat some of them there...
See my grandpa.
Saw him and his wife, was a nice visit, haven't been in their house for ages. I always go to my grandpas clothes store when he's working (yes yes he's more than 75 and still working) and I see his wife when they come to my dad's when I'm there. Their house didn't change much. His wife, which is a really lovely and funny lady, is really old now, and can't work at all anymore (she is a housewife but her food- was the best!!!). It's sad...
See my aunt and cousins (from both sides)
Only saw my aunt from my moms side... didn't get to see any cousins...
Spend time with my mom and sister.
Spent! was really nice with both of them!
Celebrate my moms birthday with her.
We hung out all day together, my sister came to Haifa too, but I had the stomach flu so I didn't really feel great that day... It past after 24 hours (which was really lucky coz having an aching stomach in Israel is like going to the toy store and not being aloud to play with the toys!!!)
Get a haircut.
Got one! really nice!
Go to the dentist.
Went. Got a filling in a cavity which I think was there more than a year ago but none of the dentists I went to ever saw it. It's the same one that the dentist in China said I should kill (root canal) - stupid dentist - it was a cavity for god's sake!!! Anyway now I have to go there again to put in the new filling (since the one I have now is temporary)...
Go to the doctor.
Went! got everything I needed.
See all my friends: including: Yifat, Adi (and her new baby), Goni (and her new baby), Tali (and her new husband to be).
Saw them all and it was great! Saw Yifat (but only for one evening and one afternoon), saw Adi and her baby twice (he's the cutest and most beautiful of them all!!! I totally fell in love), saw Goni and her baby a few times (she is definitely adorable and sweet and cute and and and), saw Tali twice and once with her boyfriend, she told me when they're getting married. And- I also saw Anat which I haven't seen in ages, and Nadav- twice- which was great, and also a new friend from one of the forums I participate in- always nice to find out who's behind a nickname.
Eat Humus.
Did that with my new friend, in the best place in Israel (to my opinion).
Go to the beach whatever weather it is.
Had a walk (well it's more of a walk with my mom than a jog) on the beach, and it was great, even though the weather was the worst (foggy - it looked as if hell came over, we could look at the sun right though it without blinking, it looked more like the moon).
I also spent time with my cute dog (took his pictures- but it's on the film camera so till it's ready to put here it'll be irrelevant already).
Now I'm back in Dresden, it's 2 degrees, it was 20 in Israel... But it's fine, I know that soon enough it'll get warmer here too. Today is Purim- our costume and fun and getting drunk holiday- I'm celebrating it tomorrow with the community (where I teach Hebrew) the kids are giving a play (which I wrote according to the holiday story) and it's gonna be fun.
This weekend is Easter, and Rob's friends from all over Europe are coming over for a yearly reunion, I'm really glad coz I really like them all... 2 of them are gonna stay over here on our floor- and on Friday we're inviting them all for dinner!!! It's gonna be a cool weekend.
I really need to start studying to my German exam, I haven't studied one bit in Israel (big surprise) and now I really need to do something about it... hmmm... Hard to get back on track...
That's the update for now, happy Purim and Happy Easter to all of you!
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Tuesday, March 11, 2008
A post from an airport
I'm in Istanbul. At the airport. There's free internet which is great- helps me pass the time. The flight here was ok, I read my new book the whole time (I'll put it on the list on the right soon). There was an old fat Turkish lady next to me, which totally took half of my space... But the flight really passed fine.
I'm on my way to the shortest visit I ever payed Israel. In total- not including the flight times- it's gonna be only 6 days. In these 6 days I'd like to:
See my dad and his wife and my little brothers.
See my grandma.
See my grandpa (they're divorced).
See my aunt and cousins (from both sides)
Spend time with my mom and sister.
Celebrate my moms birthday in 2 days, with her.
Get a haircut.
Go to the dentist.
Go to the doctor.
See all my friends: including: Yifat, Adi (and her new baby), Goni (and her new baby), Tali (and her new husband to be).
Eat Humus.
Go to the beach whatever weather it is.
Well if I think of something else I'll let you know...
Anyway- wish me a good flight,
Will write again from the holy land!
I'm on my way to the shortest visit I ever payed Israel. In total- not including the flight times- it's gonna be only 6 days. In these 6 days I'd like to:
See my dad and his wife and my little brothers.
See my grandma.
See my grandpa (they're divorced).
See my aunt and cousins (from both sides)
Spend time with my mom and sister.
Celebrate my moms birthday in 2 days, with her.
Get a haircut.
Go to the dentist.
Go to the doctor.
See all my friends: including: Yifat, Adi (and her new baby), Goni (and her new baby), Tali (and her new husband to be).
Eat Humus.
Go to the beach whatever weather it is.
Well if I think of something else I'll let you know...
Anyway- wish me a good flight,
Will write again from the holy land!
Sunday, March 02, 2008
10 minut episodes
It's amazing how time passes really fast when we divide it to small pieces.
I'm not sure where this thought is going to, but it crossed my mind while watching a series online called quarterlife. It's definitely not the most brilliant show, but it's interesting enough to get hooked on it. The big advantage of it is that it's aired only online, and I don't need a TV to watch it, and don't need to download anything illegally for that (and if you ask me it's the future of TV shows). anyway, each chapter is about 10 minutes (well each one is divided to 10 minute parts) and while watching it i noticed that 10 minutes pass really fast, and 10 min plus 10 min plus 10 etc. can really become a long time if one doesn't pay attention.
I can also say that about normal life- lets say that every period of time in life is a 10 min chapter. For example: my first course of German in the summer is one, the second chapter is my time in Israel in between, the third one is my second course that ended in January, the fourth chapter is the second course (which I'm ending on Friday) and the fifth chapter will be my week in Israel next week. When I booked this ticket to Israel, in September, and thought about this week I'm going to stay in Israel, it looked so far away, but now- looking back the time passed really fast. I'm sure it has something to do with the fact that I had so many "chapters" in between, which made life more interesting. When I come to think about it- there were much more chapters than what I listed here: there was x-mass, there was my mom and sister's visit, there was Yifat's visit...
Rob is at his parents now for a week. They're actually on holiday abroad for a few weeks, but his little brother is home alone, so he went to spend some time with him. He finished his last exams ever this week, and it seemed like a big burden fell off of his shoulders. Now he only has to do a diploma theses. He's gonna do it in a different town, and gonna stay there 3 nights a week (at least) starting in April. It's gonna be in a really good institute, and it's something he's really interested in. I was very supportive that he does what's best for him. I still am. Just gonna be a bit weird being here alone most of the week. I guess I'll get used to it.
What makes me a bit insecure is especially the fact that I don't know what I'll be doing in April. I'm going to try to get into this free course that the uni is offering here, to the 60 best ppl who pass their German exam. Since I don't know if I have a chance to be one of the best 60, I'm not really putting much hopes on this course, but I would really love to take it- coz it's for free, and money as you know is something I don't really have right now. I know that I just need to sit on my ass and study a lot for it, and I will study, for sure, just the thing is... It's really hard for me to make myself study. It comes in periods for me. Sometimes I just get into this big motivation to study and sometimes I just feel like it's the last thing I wanna do. It never really correlates with the importance of an exam. Only with something inside that I haven't figured out what drives it yet. It's obviously all psychological, but it's way too deep to fix it alone.
Oh well...
Yoga is great, I've already been there 3 times this week and 2 the first week I signed in. This week I signed up for 3 classes as well. I just love it. I already feel a difference in my body, and in my soul.
Last week of this course. I must say that I'm glad. I'm sick of it. I don't suffer in class, but don't have much more energy for it. My male teacher (as apposed to my female teacher which is great) is driving me crazy. He thinks he is our mentor to religion subjects (he's an x-Tunisian) and it really makes me mad that he takes advantage of his position to let us know what he thinks. He was a really good teacher for a beginners class, but now when we actually know a lot more, I feel bored with him and sick of being in his lessons. Oh well. Only 3 more days with him. My other teacher, she's great, I love her, she really wants us to just simply learn the language, and even if it's in a fun way. Fun. A word my other teacher doesn't know...
Ok, it's late, and I still have homework to do,
Have a really good week you all.
I'm not sure where this thought is going to, but it crossed my mind while watching a series online called quarterlife. It's definitely not the most brilliant show, but it's interesting enough to get hooked on it. The big advantage of it is that it's aired only online, and I don't need a TV to watch it, and don't need to download anything illegally for that (and if you ask me it's the future of TV shows). anyway, each chapter is about 10 minutes (well each one is divided to 10 minute parts) and while watching it i noticed that 10 minutes pass really fast, and 10 min plus 10 min plus 10 etc. can really become a long time if one doesn't pay attention.
I can also say that about normal life- lets say that every period of time in life is a 10 min chapter. For example: my first course of German in the summer is one, the second chapter is my time in Israel in between, the third one is my second course that ended in January, the fourth chapter is the second course (which I'm ending on Friday) and the fifth chapter will be my week in Israel next week. When I booked this ticket to Israel, in September, and thought about this week I'm going to stay in Israel, it looked so far away, but now- looking back the time passed really fast. I'm sure it has something to do with the fact that I had so many "chapters" in between, which made life more interesting. When I come to think about it- there were much more chapters than what I listed here: there was x-mass, there was my mom and sister's visit, there was Yifat's visit...
Rob is at his parents now for a week. They're actually on holiday abroad for a few weeks, but his little brother is home alone, so he went to spend some time with him. He finished his last exams ever this week, and it seemed like a big burden fell off of his shoulders. Now he only has to do a diploma theses. He's gonna do it in a different town, and gonna stay there 3 nights a week (at least) starting in April. It's gonna be in a really good institute, and it's something he's really interested in. I was very supportive that he does what's best for him. I still am. Just gonna be a bit weird being here alone most of the week. I guess I'll get used to it.
What makes me a bit insecure is especially the fact that I don't know what I'll be doing in April. I'm going to try to get into this free course that the uni is offering here, to the 60 best ppl who pass their German exam. Since I don't know if I have a chance to be one of the best 60, I'm not really putting much hopes on this course, but I would really love to take it- coz it's for free, and money as you know is something I don't really have right now. I know that I just need to sit on my ass and study a lot for it, and I will study, for sure, just the thing is... It's really hard for me to make myself study. It comes in periods for me. Sometimes I just get into this big motivation to study and sometimes I just feel like it's the last thing I wanna do. It never really correlates with the importance of an exam. Only with something inside that I haven't figured out what drives it yet. It's obviously all psychological, but it's way too deep to fix it alone.
Oh well...
Yoga is great, I've already been there 3 times this week and 2 the first week I signed in. This week I signed up for 3 classes as well. I just love it. I already feel a difference in my body, and in my soul.
Last week of this course. I must say that I'm glad. I'm sick of it. I don't suffer in class, but don't have much more energy for it. My male teacher (as apposed to my female teacher which is great) is driving me crazy. He thinks he is our mentor to religion subjects (he's an x-Tunisian) and it really makes me mad that he takes advantage of his position to let us know what he thinks. He was a really good teacher for a beginners class, but now when we actually know a lot more, I feel bored with him and sick of being in his lessons. Oh well. Only 3 more days with him. My other teacher, she's great, I love her, she really wants us to just simply learn the language, and even if it's in a fun way. Fun. A word my other teacher doesn't know...
Ok, it's late, and I still have homework to do,
Have a really good week you all.
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