My recipe for a perfect weekend

The sun came out and all the ppl came out of their holes. Suddenly anything irritating is much more bearable, it's much easier to spend the whole day with the kids.

We haven't done anything special this weekend, but the fact that we spent most of the time outside, in the sunshine, you can see that the kids are enjoying all this time in the fresh air.... We were just strolling around town yesterday, sitting for food in a small cute café, and I had my hair cut, it looks so much nicer now, which also makes me feel better about myself.

Today we went to the zoo with a friend of mine and her son, the two boys were having so much fun they did not want to go into the stroller and have a nap even though they were both really tired.
We had lunch in the garden, with R's sister who's here for a very short visit, and had some Italian ice cream for dessert. That and the sun light, wow, what a difference in the mood it makes. Unbelievable.

So there you go. All you need is some sunshine, fair temperatures, family or other ppl you love, and some nice activities outside, and you're set.

Enjoy spring everyone,

It's finally here.

Hysterically Quiet

These moments are very rare.
He's resting in his bed, listening to music.
She's sleeping in her bed.

Oh and here he called me.
told you it's rare.

Now you understand why I haven't been writing here lately.

Staying home with two kids is definitely not easy. It also leaves you with no time for anything but taking care of your children. There's always one kid that really needs you.
If you also need to make sure there's something for you and for them to eat, 3 times a day and some snacks, then you're really out of breath.
You're just always engaged in something. It could be "just" holding a baby trying to help it fall asleep, or if it's "just" sitting next to the table helping your older kid eat, or if it's "just" playing with your kid in his room, so that he gets some time alone with you.
It's exhausting. Really.

We got a kindergarten place for R, but he's only going to start in fall, till then I'm "home schooling" him while his baby sister is also home.

There are some magical moments. Yes.

But a lot of the time I feel tired, frustrated and sometimes just overloaded. I think that a 2 year difference between siblings is not optimal, especially, if not exclusively when the older one still doesn't go to day care.  I see other parents of siblings that are both home, and when it's a year difference, it's almost easier, since the older one hasn't yet hit those terrible, horrible twos.
When it's 3 years and more, the older kid can already go to kindergarten (meaning- will have a place in a governmental day care place, by law) which gives the again new mom (or dad, whoever stays at home) a bit of time alone with the baby, which is something I really yearn for now.

I don't know if any of this makes any sense, after the 10 minutes of quietness I had, I was disturbed by multiple reasons. So... I hope you understood at least a bit of it.

Sometimes in bed, just before falling asleep (if that doesn't happen in 2 seconds) I "write" a whole post in my head, but then I never really write it down.

So I hope I will come here again soon and write some of my thoughts.

Have a good week everyone!

The power of 2

Just popped in to say that a week ago today, I gave birth to a sweet baby girl.

It was another amazing natural birth, we went home from the birth house 3 hours after she was born.

In that note, here's something I think all women should watch:

Will try to come back soon and tell more...

I'm such a bad blogger

I haven't written a thing in ages.

That's because I'm not very good in hiding information, at least not the kind that affects my life tremendously.

The info is that I'm cooking something right now, a sibling for my son :-)

The beginning was really rough and it took me a while to recover, but now it's all good. Knock on wood of course.

Other than that, life is pretty much the same, and I feel like I might bore my readers with mother stories, so I don't share them, although every day with my almost 2 year old son, brings lots of interesting things, especially laughs and challenges.

So, sorry again for a short post, just wanted to excuse myself,

hope to be writing something interesting soon again!

update

I'm fine, really

just busy, and I guess I'll have some more time to tell you all about what's going on with me some other time....

but I'm still here :-)

Deal

Sometimes you dont want to deal with things.
Simply coz u know that the other side will never change.
Especially if you've known them for your entire life, and u know that it's only going to get worse with time and age.
It's a dead end road and u know it and it sucks.

Total mom

Today I've got flowers.
It was one little branch from the garden, and I got it right after the morning shower.
Tiny came to me and gave me the flower, very curious how I would react.

It's mothers day today. Although, in my home town we celebrate it on a different date. The first mayor made his wife's Hebrew date birthday into the city's mothers day. So we celebrate it on the second day of Chanukah.

Anyway, it's mothers day here and everywhere, and I got flowers.

I realized today, that some ppl are very total about all kinds of things. Some love their job and work all the time. Some love their partners so much, they can't imagine living without them. Some dedicate their lives to their hobbies.

I've never felt so total about something like I feel as a mom. (although I can't imagine my life without Rob ;-)). There was nothing I wanted to dedicate myself to like this. Not my studies, not my jobs. Nothing. It was more of a realization than a tacky feeling.

I think it's sad, that I feel like I need to be a bit ashamed for saying that. The new emancipated woman is supposed to want to work, not only think of making babies and providing for them.

But I don't want to apologize for the way I feel. I'm not only a woman. I'm a parent.

And yes, I know I write about this a lot... I can't help it.

My mother is here for a visit

Yay!

Just another woman you saw

Her hair is up. You can see she tried to make it look nice this morning, but at some point she just gave up.

She has dark rings under her eyes. Sometimes she forgets to put on makeup. Sometimes she just asks herself: what for? For whom?

She's wearing jeans and a knitted sweater. She wears the same jeans a few times a week. It's the one that looks best on her. It's the only one she's bought since she became a mother.

You see her everywhere: on the train, in the underground, at a restaurant, eating with another mother, in the supermarket, trying to shop for food while the kid is sleeping in the stroller, early in the morning, rushing somewhere, looking like she has no time and probably forgot to do or left something at home.

Most ppl might not even see her.
Once in a while an old lady might smile at her, or a man might offer some help taking the stroller down the stairs where there is no elevator.

She notices most woman that are like her. Spots their faces among all the others. When she sees one, she thinks: "she must have been up all night", or: "she seems so much in love with her child", or: "how is it that she looks so nice and pretty?"


She looks like them all.
They are all mothers.
They are not all the same, but they can understand each other more than anyone can understand anyone else.

3 good things last day

That's it, it's been 21 days!
would be weird to not write my 3 good things here every day. But I think that for the blog it would be a bit boring if I continue, so I guess I'll just have to make it into a habit, to write it down for myself at least a few times a week.

so.... here it is for the last time:

1. Staying at home all day coz you want to is not that bad :-) We had a nice relaxed day at home.

2. This is another nice  quiet evening. Hope there will be more of these to come.

3. I miss Rob. Some ppl might think that missing someone is a negative feeling. I don't.