What was I thinking?

It's been more than a month since I left Germany, and now I miss him more than ever. After living together, seeing each other every day for 8 months (except 10 days in x-mass), I don't really know why I was thinking to stay here for so long. But on the other hand- I wish he was here rather than wish I was there. Not that I don't wanna go- but I did need this time here, if not only to get sick of being here, then at least to "Lematzot" we say in Hebrew- to "utilize something to it's fullest" (as the dictionary translated). Not talking to him a lot in the last few days (he's not home for the weekend- meeting friends in Sweden), or to tell the truth - in the last month there were about 2 weeks that we couldn't really talk a lot- made me miss him even more. It's so weird! Before I fall asleep I think how weird it is to not be with your boyfriend for so long after living with him for 8 months. I don't know, I guess it happens, and it's not that weird but now I can't convince myself that it's normal. I know that it's me that chose to be here for so long, but it doesn't help me feel any better about it. In less than 2 weeks from now I'll be there- hopefully I'll feel better.

"Is he Jewish?"

That's the first question that people ask me after I tell them my boyfriend's from Germany. Well not entirely true- it actually goes a bit more like this: (after we've established the fact that my boyfriend is not from Israel):
- "Where is he from?"
- "Germany"
_ "......... (weird awkward face followed by a forced smile) ...... Is he Jewish???"
- "Nop"
- (now there's another awkward face followed with another forced smile)
"... Where does he live now? In Germany?"
- " Yep"
- "Isn't it hard? A long distance relationship?"
- "Well, we got used to it, and we know it's temporary"

That's just a short part of the conversations I usually have with all the "Neshume Tehorot" (Pure souls- from Yiddish - obviously sarcastic) that hear about my relationship.

You get used to it. To the faces, and the questions.

Next time I might give you a taste of the questions we've been asked in the airport, by the security people. It's even more invasive than this!!!