I'm (left) out

I didn't get in.

This is one of the saddest moments of my life.

The university in Munich didn't accept me.
They said there were many more high qualified applicants.
About a 100. And they only take 30.

This is one of the saddest moments of my life.

I'm so disappointed.

And we have to move there anyway.
Because of me Rob signed a contract for three years to do a PhD there.
I have to move, and I don't want to.
And it's all because of me.

This is one of the saddest moments of my life.

This weekend we're going to look at apartments in Munich.
And I didn't get in.
But I have to move anyway.
And have to find a place to live there anyway.
And have to leave this place in Dresden, which I love so much.

This is one of the saddest moments of my life.

Discovering the value of time

Yesterday I had to do a presentation in my German class. Each one of us had to do one, about something that has something to do with what they're going to study next year. I had to choose a subject in "Education" and I chose "Motivation". I prepared for it quite well and it went really nicely too. I realized (already when I did my first one in the other class I have) that the fact that I have so much experience in teaching and standing in front of a group really helps in life, and not just in these situations.

Since I had to prepare for this, I didn't meet all my girlfriends this week, so I had some time to spend alone. Which was really nice too. Just to realize that I actually do have time to do things, and only coz I insist on meeting 2-3 friends a week (sometimes more) on top of going to yoga twice, on top of uni- that's what makes life so exhausting. But it also helps life look much much nicer.

So now, a week before my German exam (which I'm doing nothing to study for) not having anymore Hebrew lessons (last Sunday was the last one, it's the summer vacation now) I had time to do some arts and crafts, and here's what came out of it:

It's a newspaper holder.



I bought the wooden naked thing in the hobby shop and decorated it myself

and here it is in more details:

and from on top:

Hope I'll do some more things like that in the time I'll have after the exam...

Oh and I still didn't get the answer from Munich.... Hope it gets here next week...

Have a great weekend and week everyone!

Insight about soccer and bikes

I read here on one of the newspapers that there were 13.33 million women who watched the soccer game between Germany and Portugal. This fact is even more interesting when you read the number of male watchers of the same game: 12.81 million. More woman in Germany have watched this game. Isn't that amazing?
When we went to watch a game (usually in pubs or beer gardens) we could see just as many women wearing all kinds of soccer gadgets as men. Women were wearing the German flag on them selves, painted their faces with the flag's colors, and went everywhere to watch the games- just like men did.
Do I sound old and chauvinistic saying that? coz only when I read those numbers I realized how important it became for women. I'm sure it has something to do with the fact that the whole country is in it- and there's this hype around the "Us" in Germany (and in every country I guess). Women want to be a part of the society, and nowadays - this is a way to become one.

About a week ago I rode my bicycle for the first time wearing a skirt. I guess that the male readers just asked themselves: so what??? well, I'll tell you what- it's weird!!! But it felt very free, I must say...

2.5 weeks to go till the end of my stupid German exam (but who's counting?), and I still haven't gotten an answer from the uni in Munich... I'm starting to get nervous. I was never nervous about anything like that in my life (as much as I remember). When???

Nice to write again. Even if it's not much.

one more visit to the stack

I came back from Israel yesterday.
Rob and I flew there together 10 days ago. He went back one day before me.
It was a busy week there, including my grandpa's 80th birthday party (with 100 of his family members), my cousins wedding (with 350 ppl: family and friends), my birthday (with presents friends and so many times in which I forgot that it's my birthday), one holiday (with my dad's family) and a lot of meeting friends (but not enough). I obviously ate too much (Rob calls it the Israel-sickness) and now I need a vacation from this vacation.

Going back to my German class today was really not that great- it's hard to go back on track, especially when you do something just for doing it with no real goal (to remind you I want to study in Munich next year, in English, but don't know if I got in yet- which drives me crazy...)

anyways... I know I'm not the best blogger - but I guess I'm just too tired, and don't have much to say. You know that when I have something to say- I do.

So.... till next time...

Hot Hot Hot

It's 30°c outside. Just thought I should share this piece of information.

Last weekend we were at Rob's parents. His best friend from high-school got married.
His girlfriend (now wife) came from China- and it was really nice to see her again after more than a year.

It was a traditional Polterabend- that's the party the evening before the wedding, and it's called that because 'poltern' means to rumble, to make a lot of noise.

It was a surprise for the couple, and you guys should have seen their faces as they came to the driveway and saw us all there throwing ceramic plates all over the place.

We weren't crazy or anything- it's just the tradition- to break ceramic dishes and make noise. It's suppose to bring good luck. The couple is suppose to clean it all up until the morning of the wedding.

The party was great, lots of nice people, lots of broken dishes, lots of beer and Bavarian food. It was really fun.

The next morning we surprised the couple again- this time Rob's dad came to their house with his old Mercedes, that we decorated before. He was their Chauffeur, and took them to and from city hall. The ceremony itself was normal- but even though it looked exactly like what we imagined it to be- it was very moving.

So now we lost another couple of friends to married life, it seems like it never ends...

This week at school past normally, nothing special. The sun is shining here now, I'm just making a quiche to Rob's request (he's coming home soon) and I hope that I'll be able to take advantage of the hot weather outside.

I'll tell you one thing- when it gets warm in Germany- it gets warm!!!

The worst show in town

Last night we went to the opera.

The opera house here in Dresden is one of the most famous ones, and it's one of the most beautiful buildings I've ever been to. It has been destroyed and renovated a few times because of nature catastrophes, fires and bombing.
So... We had tickets to go next week, to the known opera: "The marriage of Figaro", but then because of the wedding party of Rob's best friend, which is taking place next week at the same day- we had to change the tickets.
I was very disappointed with changing the tickets coz it's known that it's very hard to get them- coz it's always so full. The woman at the desk told us that there's good seats for a modern opera on Friday, and a few other tickets to other operas- but not in very good places. We decided to go to the modern one on Friday (although I wasn't sure it's the best idea- to go to this opera as the first real opera in my life) and so we went yesterday.

It was awful! It was the worst thing I ever watched in my entire life!!! The set of the stage was ugly, the whole thing was too modern (who wants to watch regular people in an opera? isn't the whole idea that the characters are special???) the music hurt my ears and isn't worth enough to be called music, I thought it'll be in Italian coz the woman who sold us the tickets said it's an Italian story, but it was in German, and excuse me - that just sounded terrible! I actually understood a lot of the words (they screen the words on top of the stage) but still didn't get the story, and what I did understand was just so boring and so dry!!!

Of course we left in the middle. It was a waste of time.

Hence, I'll take advantage of the fact that this blog is online and write the following:

"La Grande Magia" - is the worst opera on earth, it's the worst show in town and a waste of your money!!!

That's it. Sometimes writing thing down is such a catharsis!!!

Out of breath

Last week I was sick. I think in the last year in Germany I was sick more times than I've been in the last 5 years all together.

Today we got homework to do- to read the next text in the study book.

It's about stress.

It gives examples how stress can make people sick. It says that there's two kinds of stress: acute stress- that makes us nervous for a short period of time, but can also have effects on us after the stress is over, and chronic stress, which slowly slowly eats us up and ruins our immune system.

I think I'm suffering from the second kind of stress.

I must admit that I don't know why I'm stressed, I mean, I've already decided that I'm not going to study a master program in German, and that I'm only doing this course to get myself a certificate that says that I know German well enough.

So Why does it get to me so much? is it the long hours I spend on sitting in a classroom and feeling that I learn nothing new? Is it the annoying people in class- which I don't really like, coz most of them (not all) are too young and know nothing about life and ask stupid questions? Is it coz my teacher is nice sometimes but sometimes I feel like biting her head off coz she speaks to us as if we're dumb kids?

I don't know why I feel stressed, but I know that I am- by the symptoms: I'm always tired, no matter how much I slept, and I'm really not concentrated in class. I find it really hard to learn something new, and even words I've heard a million times do not stay in my head.

I don't know how to solve this, I hope I won't get too sick. I try to rest as much as I can. I go to yoga twice a week at least (today I canceled coz I was just too tired to go, but went yesterday and going tomorrow), and try to remind myself why I'm doing this at all.

I think that the fact that Rob isn't here half of the week doesn't really help me, coz I don't really have anyone to talk to (on the phone or on skype isn't the same) and tell him how I feel (but if you ask him he'll tell you that we talk about it all day long)...

Hope I'll be better, any suggestions will be blessed.

Busy busy busy

I only found time to write now, after so long that I haven't written, and still I don't have much time now- coz I'd like to go to bed early...

Last week I started my new course at the uni. I must say that I'm not loving it... But I'll still try to give it a chance. One of the things that are hard is the fact that I run around all day everyday almost, and that really makes me tired. As I said before, I have classes every morning and three times in the afternoon.

I got my visa prolonged last week too, it took 5 min, 35€, and one bitch who yelled at me saying: "do I need to speak Chinese to you so you'd understand???" only coz she had my passport in her hands and the power to decide what to do with me I didn't answer her: "well just try speaking Chinese to me- coz I would actually understand what you're saying- if you just dare!!!"

On the weekend we drove west to Rob's grandma's bday weekend. "On the way" we visited Kevin in Trier, and had a nice trip next to the Mosel river, and also met Liya in Düsseldorf. Meeting Liya was great- but was so short... I wish we could have stayed there for a few days... Anyway- she knows (hint hint) that she's more than invited to visit me here in Dresden!!!

Burg Eltz

One of the most beautiful castles I've ever seen

I calculated it and we drove around 1600 km in one weekend! That's crazy. I can't wait to have a weekend where I stay at home and sleep in every day... Coming soon!

Anyway, I'd like to go to sleep now coz I have to get up in 7 hours (I need my beauty sleep),

Will try to write here again soon!

Oh, and Happy Pessach (Passover) to whoever celebrates it!!!

I'm in

Yes! I passed this exam!!! and got in to the free course that the uni here offers!!!
This saves me a lot of money and makes me a student of the uni! I'm really glad about it...

Next Monday I start- and it's a really full plan... 5 days a week the whole morning and three times in the afternoons. I'm lucky that the afternoon classes don't clash with my Yoga...

So here I am, gonna be really busy from next week, not sure if I love the idea of not having time for anything, but I'm waiting to see how my teachers are, if they're nice or not...

That's it, nothing else is new,

Have a great weekend ppl!

Home is where? (the heart is)

Have you ever been in your own house,
but really wanted to go home?

I'm not in a down period- so relax, that's not what I'm trying to say. But even though I feel quite ok about myself right now, and where I am (wouldn't want to be anywhere else) I still find myself sometimes feeling that I wanna go home.

And there the problem starts.

Coz where is home? what is home?

I even find myself thinking that when I'm home. I mean in my own apartment (which I love). I sit at home and want to go home. It's a very weird feeling coz I can't fix this feeling. What am I suppose to do? Where am I suppose to go?

Just wanted to share that one with you guys.